| | CMNT;; SUBB. Please?
You said I was great.
You said I could be great.
You said we were destined to be together.
You said it to the world,
you said it to me,
and I wish you never had because you did not mean any of it.  I really wish you'd come back.
Not to say hi, or to tell me how good you're doing without me;
just to stop by, and to give me the one thing of mine you never returned:
my heart  .i won't miss you like you think that i will,
but you'd be glad to know that i'm not doing so well.
don't waste your words saying things that we both know aren't true.
but i hope you think of me sometimes like i think about you.
i wonder if you're happy now, manipulating someone new.  Quentin Fields was a basketball player. He was also a son. A brother.
Somebody’s teammate. Somebody’s friend. I never knew
Quentin Fields and I guess now I never will. Did you ever wonder what
it would be like if you weren’t you anymore? If you were suddenly
gone how would your world react? Whatever you imagined was wrong.
There’s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the ocean:
it’s deep and dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a
thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and
faith and love. I didn’t know Quentin Fields but I’m
jealous of him because I see how his absence has affected the people
that did know him so I know that he did matter to them. And I know he
was loved. People say Quentin Fields was a great basketball player.
Graceful. Fluid. Inspiring. They say on a good night it almost seemed
as though he could fly. And now he can.  Its like looking at all the students and wondering
whose had their heartbroken that day, and
how they are able to cope with having 3 quizzes
and book report on top of that. Or wondering
who did the heartbreaking, and wondering why  So go ahead, fall down. The world looks different from the ground.  When the sky is falling from above youAnd the wind is raging from the coast
And you want someone who truly loves youI will be the one who loves you the most  You think I'm gonna take you back!
You'd better do better than that.
I'll tell ya how its gonna be,
don't you never ever come near me.
Let me tell you how I've been:
I've been hiding from my friends,
hiding from the world,
hiding from myself.
You think you'll come round here,
start singing in my ear,
girl you damaged me,
I don't forgive so easily.
You better do better than that!  I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier
I got soul but i'm not a soldier  it was that very second,
that exact moment that i stood there
looking in your eyes,
not knowing what the heck i was doing,
& everything was suddenly so clear
So now here we are, in the last down low
Oh we can go fast, or should I go slow
I wanna kiss your lips, is that okay
I'm that guy, i'm that guy baby you'll be calling out my name
Sing it to me now. 
i wrote you letters but i forget to mention ;;
i'm a mess, i'm a wreck, you're a stranger
& there will be torn up photos, and lonely nights.
cursing, crying, and drawn out fights.
making up and a brand new start.
Broken promises for broken hearts.  I missed 11:11 by one minute last night
I guess that's fates way of telling me
You're just not worth wishing for anymore  my love for you is like a scar [[;;]]
ugly but permanent.
 You know that romantic notion
that all the garbage and the pain
is really healing and beautiful
and sort of poetic?
It’s not.
It’s just garbage and it’s pain.
You know what’s better?
Love.
The day that you start thinking
that love is overrated is the day that
you’re wrong.
The only thing wrong with
love and faith and belief is not having it. 
Because once upon a time, we used to best friends.
|&&| yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff between us.
But none of that matters right now, okay?
You need me, I'm here.
Any time, any place, anywhere.
Sometimes, I wish I could just go back in time;;
all those times I wasn't there for you, I know I've been a bad friend.
It hurts that we are no longer best friends
|&&| every conversation is strained.
I just want things the way they were before.
It's too late now - I had my chance and it came and left.
I just want you to know, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry what happened to us
You can't be close enough unless I'm feeling your heart beat
I started sending you a note
on how I hope that you’re happy
I hear you’re somewhere in athe sand
and how I wish I was an ocean   |
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